came back yest late afternoon..
b4 that went to the macs at science park there with dajie..
cuz she want to study...
haha..
so i join her lo...
so funny...studying with her...
ahah...
cuz i never studied with her b4...
our age gap so big...
haha....study tgt for what....
goodness....
haha....
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i juz realise i'm only left 2 wks..
wtf..

was intending to stay on wkends for the rest of the next few wks...
but somehow when i went back hall today...
looking at how others preparing to go home...
suddenly i juz feel like going home.....
hahha i oso dunno why...
it's the first time i felt this way...
since sec sch...i'm v used to staying out...
st nicks was like our 2nd home....as what xiao4 zhang3 used to say..
ahah..
we camp there like crazy during our 4 years there...
so i guess since then....my fam's used to me staying out...
plus im from np....lots of camps n stuffs...
n the thing is i oso like stayovers at frens hse...
n we always organise them....
ahah...
so i always seem to be out.....
when i moved to hostel...
i'm pretty quick to adapt to it....
dun really miss home when others started showing signs of homesickness..
hah...
that time i really wonder if i'm a bit weird...
but guess not..
hahaah..
cuz i missed home juz now!!
juz that prob i took a longer time...since i'm v used to staying out...
ahha....
so i packed my bag n stuff but i din go home immediately..
went town thou...
hahhahah....walk a bit n stuff....
had pepper lunch!!
not bad...
really big portion....
but yumyum!!
then actually wanted to go home liao but then haha aki n me ended up in acid bar...
ahah...well...
i'm getting bad to worse....
edith's going to nag at me.....

so many things happen yest....
n i oso dunno what to say....
lots of things to say n to be said....
but totally lost...
i dunno what to say...........
i'm afraid of saying the wrong things which will cause misunderstandings....
blogger sucks...... it gives wrong impressions............

msn n this darn blogger's daaaammmmmmnnnnn lllllllaaaaaagggggg.........
dotz..........
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juz had muffin!!! yumyum...choc one wor...
all thanks to limei's mom!!!
she always bring nice stuff over!!
dinner was her curry chicken....wooooo....
bagus sia!!!
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went to nie to study today...
qt productive....
not bad....
ok hope that i can pick up the momentum n con't this way!!!
jiayou!!!!!!
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talked to edith abt it.....
n i guess i've made up my mind.....
i've changed!!!
ahaha...seldom so decisive...
or cuz deep down i'm really bu shuang...that's y i'm like that?
maybe...
maybe i've changed lah....
last time...i won't use strong n harsh words like "selfish"...always try to think of a better n more positive way to describe pple's action.......
this time....it's either i've become more attitude n heck care liao...if not it's really the fact the person's like that.......
so yups....
but still hope everything's not going to turn really bad......
haiz...........................................................................................

time: 2:39 am
wow.......
been sleeping really late these few days...
in fact tonight is the earliest...
haha....
went for cheerleading juz now...
not many pple came.....but con't.....revised some of the stuff.....
went for supper after that... i think we really chit chat damn long there..
ahha..talking abt army stuff n some of the weird things n pple there...
cuz vincent's going army soon!
hah...
oh...
then came the fun part..haha
taiho (spelling??hmm?) drove n all 9 of us squeezed into his toyota corolla...
haha..
imagine...we have 5 guys...3 of them were like huge..
haha...so...4 guys sat at the back with 3 gals sitting on their laps..
hahaha..
it's really like damn funny lah...whenever taiho made a turn or went over a hump..
hahaha....
i think his car's suspension is going to cui...
haha...
oh...
n b4 that...aki went inside the car boot cuz it's damn spacious...haha
n they took a pic...
shld get that.....funny sia....
a good start for the wk....
haha

woke up feeling v cold....it was raining really heavy outside....
nice weather to sleep...
but somehow i din....seem qt awake...prob cuz it's already 1 sth...

think the rain seems to have the power to make one emotional....
sitting down here with my book..
suddenly the feeling of.......sadness?loneliness?
haha.. i oso dunno....
juz sth not so good.....surging up inside......
why????
the rain.....it seems like it has the power to make u feel this way......

somehow it makes u think back....
think of some things in the past...
things that u've done n things that u din....

ah...
juz came back from bball training...
mm..
i'm going to be all alone this wk end..
not going home
cuz i want to be a mugger....
hahahah...
but suddenly felt qt lonely...
haha....
cuz no one's ard...
n then juz now dajie called me thru google talk.....
she's back from england!
n the whole fam's there to talk to me juz now..
haha...
well.......
but since i've decided to stay..
i shld try to make the best out of it...
yups....
n aki's damn nice...
she know i'll be staying thru the wkend n she told zhiyang abt it..
so that at least i got someone to eat dinner with or sth...
ahha...
so touched...awwwwhhhhhhhhhhh
thanks aki!!!!
but i guess i'll be a hermit...
haha.....
me not a v sociable person...hehe....
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think recently really ate a lot....
hmm...keep eating supper and rah-rah-ing with the tweeties man...
let me recall...hmmmmm
ok...i rem eating 933 golden pillow then after that garlic bread at aki's room...that night qt fun...cuz it's really lots of pple man...
ahah.....we can have a cafe 283 liao...haha....
then i rem yest i went to ah fang with aki limei n james at 12 then eat again at 3 plus cuz kailin help us da bao...
oh my...fat fat..
yest...raye went home so i was alone...n nice aki (again) came over to acc me...
n then kaleong emmanual n davina came over to study..
well...i tried to study but....dotz...not effective at all lo...
haiz...muz jia you!!

my back pain sia..........
got worse today man.....
n davina was like exclaiming when she helped me to apply the aloe vera juz now...
n she took a pic to show me..
wow biangz...
it's like damn red!
haha
with the bikini line...
ahahah....
today's lesson damn cui..
haah....
during econs lesson, i fell asleep unconsciously...
only realised i nod off after i woke up..
n candy told me i slept for an hr..
haha...
n then i'm sitting right in the middle of the class..
haha...
then con't to sleep during IT lesson...
haha cui.......
dinner was 933 jin zhen tou!!
yum yum
love the bread..
v soft...
at 12am was back at aki's room for supper...
she made garlic bread...
yumyum
oh no...think getting fat if we con't like this..
anyway juz now was damn ri nao..
aki's room's totally flooded cuz club 216 pple oso came...
haha...
happening lah....
oh...n i'm still bluffing some of the pple that we went to langkawi...
haha....
wonder what's their reaction when they found out we only went to sentosa..
hahh

oh!!
got back my biz law assignment today!!
n guess what!??
hahah... i got A- leh...
i din expect it man..
cuz my biz law is so damn lousy...
thot i'll get a C or sth...
cuz b4 that i saw stacy got B+...
she's usu damn zai one lo...
plus her eng much more powerful than me......
wow...
damn happy leh......
=)

back from langkawi!!!
hahahahahh
no lah..actually is back from sentosa!!
the sun was good man!!
hahah
so hot that i felt i was burning man..
anyway my back is burnt now..
haha....
took lots of pic n stuff...
i oso went for a dip in the sea cuz it's damn hot...
ah....
it's damn nice to be there...relaxing..
hahah....
later went sky tower...
engkee n jon's there!!
haha
din see ash..heard he got transferred to the luge n really look like a malay now..
haahah
then yeah..jon's damn zi dong...he let all 5 of us in for a ride!!
hehehe
damn nice....
got the urge to do the commentry but too bad it's not jon who's operating...
if not i confirm will ask him to let me hold the mike...
hahaha...
"ladies and gentlemen, welcome to carlsberg sky tower, for ur own safety, pls remain sitted thru out the ride...carlsberg now presents to u..probably the best view with a world of frens.."
hahaha
can still rem..hah
siao me..
after that went harbourfront shop shop but i was half dead liao..
totally stone during that period...
moment i reached my room..i juz flop on my bed..
slept til 7 i think..
haha....
ah...
then went for cheerleading...
everytime they pop me down, my back kena bua by the base..
shit it...
it's sizzling pain lo..
ahha..
at first aki thot i got stunned by the throw..
but after she went up herself she realised why my expression was so weird..
haha..
but funlah....cuz the pple vincent got were damn zai..
esp the flyer..
she's not juz chio but damn zai!!!
wow.....
but i oso v paiseh cuz i keep hitting that jason whenever they pop me...
keep his head...
think he got concussion liao...
oops..
haha.....

woo hoo..
there was a black out juz now....
abt 4am...
hah...
our v first blackout at hall one!!
hahah
happening sia!
everyone came out...
at 18, guys on the 2nd floor started playing cards...
those who got torch light starting shining it everywhere...
pple from 14 lighted their light sticks...
ahaha...
happening lah...
at that hr..still lots of pple not sleeping...hahah
oh..n then aki decided to light lanterns haha..
n we hanged some over the clothes line...
a bit siao ah us?
hahaha.......
anyway..
y am i still up at this hr...
mind u... i'm STILL up at 5.50am..
haha
n abt 40 min later i'll be setting off with the tweetie gang to sentosa!!
tanning session!!
juz now after shooting a damn girlish n gigglish scence..we rushed off to orchard to buy our bikini!!
n in one hr n 10 min time..i spent 80 bucks!!
wow...it's that a record???!!
haha
the bikini din cost 80 lah...
but i bought a skirt n belt...wohoooo
everything add up to 80...
wow..
record for me leh...
ahahh
talking abt jk's film..
haah
the scene: aki limei davina n me suppose to be frens sitting at some place
drink stuff....
talk n laugh...
hahaha
so for the whole thing...
we juz laugh n giggle...
hahahah
funny sia...

i'm angry...

when was the last time that i truly felt angry towards someone??

that's like damn long ago...
prob in sec...

waited for aki till 4 plus or 5...
damn late lo..
they took abt 8 hrs to shoot that man..
gosh... but i guess cuz jun kit is a perfectionist..hahah
but anyway raye n me wanted her to come cuz limei's out..
so yup...
both of us were actually awake but cuz raye had to teach tuition at 9..she slept first...
n i con't to do my shitified proj...
aki came n we finally slept...
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dunno what's wrong with me...prob a bit deprived from shopping....
the moment i reached compass pt...
i went shopping..not intentionally thou...haha
bought 2 tops from U2...$34
then earrings n hairband...$8.8
actually ok lah hor..
haah...
juz that i'm broke liao..
hahaha

oh..
forgot abt today...haha..
woke up late today but still managed to make it to biz law...
not bad leh..at least...think i got listen lah...
but then totally sian at econs...
went with class to eat lunch..
looks like a long time since i last saw them...
mmm....
then proj again...
haiz.....
then bball training!
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i'm trying to get rid of my tummy man...
dotz...
i think it's damn ugly...gosh!!
haiz..
it's all the supper n snacks that making me an ugly gal...
boohoo....
the day b4...tweeties had maggiemee...one packet to each n then yest we called kfc...
how fattening!!! gosh!!!
n today got raye's choc...so damn nice!! but making me a fat pig liao

wow...
this wk's qt an eventful plus bz wk man..
ok...let me recall...
sun came back...cheerlead was qt fun n we went for supper after that....
on tues right....jiaying gave me a surprise visit at night!!
haha..so surprised n damn happy lah that she came over..cuz so long nv seen her...
wed's like proj day...IT cancelled cuz marc low's sick..hah
went to have lunch with yuanie jiaying n huiying....
nice nice...
actually it's the first time we had this kind of combi for lunch...haha
then went for proj at peijun's room...
in the end i fell asleep...so paiseh..she got to do the slides....=(
thurs was fun!! hahahah
went for proj in the morn...then went home to get uniforms for aki!!
at first found only one nj U in my wardrobe...then i start wondering where r the rest...
so start searching for them....hahah
n yeah!! found all!!!
hahah
so in the end i brought 2 nj U n 2 sng U back to hall!!
then went for cheerlead dance formation....wow..cheemo..wonder how i'm going to that kicks n stunts n whatever...
ahha....
n then came the exciting part man...
raye n i were so excited abt the uniforms..
n she changed into the nj one..n me into the sng...
hahaha
then rushed over to aki's room...
n limei n her changed too!!
hahha
n then we got so high that we decided to parade the hall..haha
with our schoolbags n trackshoes!! hahaha
this is damn fun...love wearing uniforms!! going to ask the rest to bring theirs and we can have a uniform day!!
woohoo!!!
ahahha.......

seems like everyones pretty occupied these days..........


bz with all sort of things....

maybe it's juz me afterall....


hor?


that selfish side of me thinking that i'm not the one who's at fault, the one who is acting like this........

read the newspaper yest...
there's this article abt 50 youths who knew what they want to do...
who have big dreams and dare to pursue them..
some already have great acheivements despite their young age...
n then after reading that...
juz wondering what i'm going to do...
what r my dreams??
at the age of 19...i still have no idea at all..
look!! a 15 yr old already knew she want to be an opera singer..
n there she is!!! on the path to her dream....
n i'm here....taken the path that i was supposed to take...
i din acheive great results...like taken a scholarship n stuff...
but i did wat i supposed to do....
did well enough to allow myself to be in one of the top schools...
but then.....that was what i'm supposed to do....
wat do i want to do?
no idea...been led by my rational side for the past years...
i know here...not everything u want to do can be done juz by the fact that u have the interest in it...
it's not that simple...

how come there's always pple who seems to miss their home??
n y am i not one of them??


too independent or juz can't be bothered??

btw...
saw my cousin juz now...when i was drinking...
he came right beside me...
but he din recog me lah...
cuz we don't really c each that often.....
or prob..i'm always the dao one in the fam who don't mix ard....
juz wondering what if he really saw me...
mm..
will he like tell my sis?
or juz take it as it is..
hah.. dunno...
but i guess avoiding him juz now is a better option...
it's still not a good idea to let ur fam know some of the things that u do outside....

i think prob it's juz me....right?

hah went drinking again...hahha
right after bball training somemore..
like not shag..
ahha...
well..
but i still think i din drink enough...
mm...
what did i drank juz now???
hmm..
definitely more than the time i drank with edith they all...
beer...apricot brandy...malibu pineapple..
abit of others...
haha..
still qt sober...