wow!!
the last time i blog was like dunno when man...
gosh..
so many things happened....mmm
oso dunno where to start....
ok....let's talk abt orientation..
haha...
seriously din really regret going it afterall.....
it's fun!! n my group chipmunks' got really nice pple...freshies n seniors!!!
they all v nice!!!
it's a good thing we can all click!!
i dun care if we r the winners at the orientation as long as the pple's nice n fun n we all click!!
lucky me!!
actually b4 that camp..don't really want to go lo..
sian man..cuz...muz socialise n all that...
but then..from tues onwards...i din really think of going home..
hahahha
rare leh..
ahha...
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then another thing is..
started my hostel life with kherray...
so far so good...
hahahah..
she really take care of me orh...
thanks raye!!
ahhaha
i'll try my best of u too!!
hee...
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also started lessons..
like shit like that...
2 hrs lecture....crazy...ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
last time one hr i cannot tahan liao....what u think of now...???
hahah....
cannot!!
muz work hard!!
cannot sleep liao!!!

went for my 2nd canoeing lesson today...
mm..bought my wet shoes...so my feet not so painful!!
hah...
they taught us this technique which i can't get it right if i use my right side...
it's call the eskimo bow rescue..
gosh man...kelvin made me do it again and again n again n again..
gosh... now feel that one side of my ear still got water inside..haha
but...it's good n cool to learn lah..
ahah..
but then i got uneven tan man....
my arms n my body is like....black meets white..haha
n my thighs got 3 tone lo..ahahah
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went to my hostel at night to dump some things..
have to siam the orientation..
don't want them to keep asking y i'm not there...
hahah....

went damn early to ntu today..
was hoping that i can change to blk 15 beside yunzi..
haiz...but they don't let me lo...
but i heard from jiaying that her hall 2 can lo..
whatever...
haiz..
n somemore..today i checked that the room beside yun's empty lo..
wau lau damn sad lah..
but anyway...went to clean my room..
super damn dusty...
thanks to my parents...
they cleaned the difficult parts like that shitty window n the fan n the lights...
haha
i think i v particular hor...
lights n fan oso need to clean..
hahaha..
i even pulled out the bed to clean the back of the headrest!!
ahhaha..i oso cleaned the blinds n the mosquito nettings...hahahaha....
so i cleaned like 80% of it...
shall leave the rest to kherray tmr....
think begin to like the room more after it's cleaned..
ahah prob cuz i put in so much effort to clean the place....
yups..
met of one neighbours today..juz said hi...so paiseh...
really tiring...
haiz......

EVErythinG wilL be FiNe!!!

cooling pt..

还有11天就要开学了。。。
天啊！我怎么有种忐忑不安的感觉呢？
上学是件好事啊。。我也廷喜欢上学。。因为没有像工作那么枯燥乏味。。
但。。嗨~~~~
也许是想到要重新适应新的环境，新的生活吧。。。也要认识新的人。。。
也许我就是那种不喜欢改变的人吧。。。
但我比较担心的应该是人。。。
因为要和新的朋友建立友谊其实是蛮累人的。。。
也许是年纪大了吧。。。也有可能是我懒。。。
但也有可能是我怕有得就有失。。。

哈哈。。。我又像太多了。。。
得改改。。。
哈哈。。。

went bugis with yuanie n huiwen today...
woo...bought super lots of things!!
hahahhaha
spend a total of 80 plus bucks...
wahahah..
recently spend alot...muz control a bit heheeh....
then after that...met weiwei....
it's such a long time since i last met her......
mm..
she had her braces on!!
haah....last time oso din realised she need anyway...
but nvm next time will become prettier!
ahah..
so we went marche n talk talk..
so nice...hope we will keep in contact even after sch starts....

hahaha so happy!!!!
finally managed to put this tanya song!!
so muz listen to it k..
it's a nice a song!!
well...but if u not into chinese songs then dun listen....

woo..juz ate instant noodles...
oh no..
bad to have supper....
but dunno y today i juz feel like eating man..
haiz..
nth to do ba..
i juz feel like eating
thou i'm not really hungry... =\

aching like shit now..
my arms and my back...
can't move much...i can't move fast..
all my actions slow down like dunno what..
ahah..
n i'm all cutz n bruises..
din realise until i reached home yest..
gosh....

spent qt alot today..considering the fact that i only went beach rd..which is suppose to be qt a ulu place..
ahha..
well..
1. wet shoes--$21
2. fbt shorts--$8
3. facial n stuff--$25.8
4. food--$11

total--$65.8!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
gosh!!!!!!!

oh...
went for 2 star canoeing course today!!
ah..damn tired now..
the good thing abt 2 star is i managed to get to use dancer instead of the old heavy starlem..
ok..at first thot my instructor kelvin was the serious kind....n he bu shuang us..
but it's kinda our fault lah..haiz..
but later after lunch..he was much nicer..
n v crappy hahahah.....so think i get along fine with him..
yup...
think i'll juz get my booties/wet shoes...dun care lah..
it's more comfortable than some old shoes..
really painful to wear them...
haiz...
think i really like water sports..
sort of gave me a nice n comfortable feeling...really relax to juz laze in the middle of the sea....
oh!!
n today we saw this beautiful rainbow!!!
it's so nice..n it's not the kind of arc that we usu see..
it's actually behind a huge mass of cloud n the rainbow is above it..n it's almost a circle!!
i nv see that b4 man...
it's so nice!!
really wanted to take a pic..but no cam!! really want to take that n add colours to a black n white person...
argg....idiotic...dunno when i'll c that again...
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actually i'm qt glad these two days i got sth to do..
or i shld say i got sth else to think abt...
haiz....

SUN in CANCER

As the fourth sign of the zodiac, Cancer represents the fourth stage in the evolution of man and his place in the universe. In Cancer the need is not one of individual survival as it was in the first three signs. Here, it is eternal survival through perpetuation of the species. It is the sign of fertility and nurture, and Cancerians have strong identification with these matters in one form or another. It doesn't mean all of them are good cooks or efficient housekeepers, but they all want to feel part of a family. They enjoy feeding others as much as they enjoy feeding themselves. They are also ready to supply emotional nurturing by "mothering" everyone who appears to be in need. When upset, they tend to use food as consolation, which in turn, results in problems with excess weight. As an offshoot of their sense of familial relationships, they often develop an interest in genealogy and history in general.
Cancerians are doers. They set out to accomplish things and, one way or another, they want to obtain their goals. In spite of their emotional sensitivity, they are strong-willed and have no trouble expressing what they want, then finding a way to get it. The Crab is their astrological symbol and there are certain crab-like gestures directly associated with the behavior of Cancerians. Just as the crab walks sideways rather than straight ahead, Cancerians use an indirect approach in accomplishing their goals. Rather than direct confrontation or request, they are more apt to resort to using emotional appeal. For example, they will get others to cooperate by making them feel like part of a family. At the slightest provocation or threat the crab quickly hides in the sand or retreats into a shell until safer times are at hand. Cancerians who feel threatened or suspect that their attempts may be unsuccessful, often hide their true ambitions until a more comfortable situation occurs.
Cancerians react emotionally to everything they experience in life. That is, before they take physical action, before they sort out the practicality of what they are doing, and before they reason things out intellectually, they must express their feelings. They wear their hearts on their sleeves. Many Cancerians succeed in life because their genuine concern for the welfare of others inspires loyalty as well as cooperation.
The Moon, celestial guardian of human emotions, rules Cancer. The biggest struggle for Cancerians is to avoid becoming prisoners of their own emotions. Though they can be outwardly gregarious, they are shy and secretive about their personal matters. However, once they feel comfortable in a situation or relationship, they relax and completely open up even to the point of dominating the situation. Not usually ones to suffer in silence, they have to make an effort not to inflict their moods and endless recitations of their feelings or emotional troubles on others. Once they learn to keep excess emotions in control, their intuition can be remarkably accurate. Their emotional insecurity makes them want to hang on to things. They hate to throw anything away, and many end up avid collectors, conservators, and savers of string. It is equally difficult for them to give up on failed relationships, and still harder for them to learn the difference between caring and possessiveness. When they receive criticism, even constructive criticism, they tend to take it as a personal indictment instead of using it to attain personal growth and maturity.
Participation in physical fitness or sports activities becomes an important, often vital way for Cancerians to work out their emotional stress. They are especially adaptable to team sports since they tend to view their team members as part of a family-like group. Favorite Cancerian sports are swimming, fishing, sailing and other water activities. They also enjoy skiing, ice skating, and mountain climbing. Cancerians are creative. Even those who may not have a particular talent can use some type of involvement with art, music, or writing as another method of emotional release, instead of indulging in eating binges or other destructive habits. Living or spending time near the water is a relaxing, as well as creatively stimulating environment for Cancerians.
Cancer colors are white, silver, and pale yellow. Vulnerable parts of the body are the breasts and stomach. Stomach aches, food allergies, and hysterics are the usual afflictions of Cancerians. Cancer rules silver, and the ruby as well as the pearl are considered Cancerian birthstones. The surroundings of a beautiful piece of silver are reflected in its shiny polished surface. Similarly, the emotionally sensitive nature of Cancerians tends to reflect the people and circumstances surrounding them. The ruby, a variety of corundum, is one of the hardest minerals known, while the pearl is soft and easily scratched. These gems uniquely illustrate the two contrasting sides of the Cancerian personality; hard and determined as well as soft and vulnerable. Cancerian flowers are the water lily (lotus), iris, poppy (white), carnation (white) and southern magnolia.

haiz........................................................



叹息是一种无奈的表现吧。。。。。

oh...juz want to say sth abt my pa...forgot to say last night..juz rem...
i realised...he's really good at looking at pple..as in he seems to be able to know sth at first sight...
thou i din tell him..but he juz sensed it or saw it..
amazing.

“在上海第一天跟導演碰面的時候，導演講了一句話，他不是為了要拍同性戀而拍的，他覺得人與人之間的感情其實是很脆弱的，不管是同性還是異性；對待感情上面，同性可能會比較難，比較痛，突然間我覺得，為什麼我們看同性異性，要看的那麼重要？其實不管同性異性，最重要是那一段感情怎麼樣，所以我在拍的時候，我沒有想前面那一個人是女人，我在想的是我對她的感情是真的，我愛她是真的，是不可以改變的，那個時候，面前是男的女的已經不是重要的了，重要的是那個人。

-----袁詠儀談《孤戀花〉〉中的角色

自我。。。
很重要吗？

是！

永远都不能失去自我！

我是我！

everything involves risks..i think..
everything needs a kind of courage..different degrees of courage for different stuff...
yup..
i think it applies to making frens too...n developing the relationship with them.

arghh!!
my right shoulder's aching like shit now!!

i'm quitting on fri!!!
i told my sup today liao..
ahahah...
haiz..so sian at work lo..so..after giving it a thot..
i think i shld juz quit..
work is so sian..that i keep nodding off..
lucky got xl to msg me...
if not i'll really sleep..hahaha..
mm..
happy~~~
waiting for fri!! =D

work is so damn boring today..haiz..
suddenly thot of quitting..mmm...ok shld i quit or not..
was thinking of quitting on 12..mm..
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went to watch initial d!!!!
jimmy treated me to dinner n that...
paiseh let him treat..
mm realise qt long nv c him liao..soon he's going army...
that's why asked him out lah..
ahaha...
initial d's damn cool!!!
ah!! love it!!

wow...
i'm damn tired now...
but i think i really want to put all of this down..
cuz i want to rem it forever n ever...
i guess it's the happiest birthday that i ever had...
ok first rite..it's edith n jess lah...that one i said liao...we had dinner at jack's place on wed..yup..
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then for yest n today rite...it's really a piggy feasting event..haha
yest, treated my fam to wasabi restaurant at compass pt..
the meal was damn filling lah..each of us had rice n ramen...gosh..
was damn full..
then met yuanie to do a bit of shopping...n i bought myself that s&k berms..haha
wanted to get that mango capri but decided not to lah..already spend a lot liao..=P
n yuanie got me this pencil case n mickey mouse wallet..haha..
the pencill case qt cool...damn attitude..glad she listened to huiwen to get that instead of the pink ripcurl that she initally wanted to buy..haha..i don't really think i suit a pink pencil case..haha
then..we went to meet edith at city hall...then came lingli n jess..yup..actually yest's night's combi is kinda weird...me edith jess lingli yuanie n huiwen..hahahah..
but it's ok lah...the entertainment n scandalous level was qt high..hahah...
really had fun!!!!
so we went to music dreamer (爱琴海）for dinner...it's really a cool hang out place!!!
the singers r good man...
think i want to go there again!!!
stayed there till 10 i think...then decided to go clarke quay..but in the end we din end up in any o the pubs but the coffee bean there..hahaha...
so rot there a bit....
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so sun...woke up super early despite the fact that i slept damn late last night...
so yup...met the class to go ecp....but we suppose to meet at paya lebar mrt..
think i'm qt funny..haha..
took the bus 80 today..n i checked out the bus route yest night...n my orginal plan was to take the bus to aljunied mrt n then take mrt to paya lebar..
but then when i took the bus..i thot to myself..shld be alighting once i c railways ba..
so when i saw the railway, i alight lo...cuz i scared i miss the stop or sth due to all the construction work there..haha..ya..so i alighted n started walking to that mrt station..
the bus stop which i alighted was qt far from that station, so i oso not sure whether that's aljunied not...
but by the time i walked there..i realised i'm at paya lebar mrt station liao...haha..
n i saw my bunch of classmates there....hahah..
think i'm damn duh....dotz man...hahahah
yup..so we went ecp lah...at first keep playing taidi...haha...
but finally went to bike n jer n yat went to blade...haha..
then..kahwee came with the cake..
think they wanted to hide it from me..but haha..i saw liao...ahha..
so all of us had a fat share of the cake....qt full after eating that...
yup...
then 5566 got me a huge piggy head..which i think i'm going to bring to hostel!! hahah..
n if anyone own me money i'll hang it at their door...hahaha..
n they got me this wrist leather strap thing....
n kahwee yat ch ys n xs got me this pencil case n this 4 leaf clover necklace..
ok..they took a real long time to find a 4 leaf one..haha..which i think make ch qt pek chek during the search...
yup so thanks!!!!
but i now got a prob...i got 2 pencil cases...how??
mm..
muz think of a way..er...
one put coloured pens n the other normal ones or sth like that...haha...
n then...i rushed home to bathe n change n i'm off to dhoby to meet kherray jiaying n xiuling...
had fish n co (the one beside park mall)...seafood platter...yumyum but damn full again..
think i really gain alot...oops...
n they treated me to that...which i kinda paiseh..cuz oso not cheap lo.....
then came the little surprise..
n i really think the 3 of them's really cunning n i feel so innocent..hahahahaha
muz be kherray's idea man..
the whole plot started one wk ago..haha..
n i think i'm damn stupid lah..as usu..hahah
so..that supposedly pyscho cake qn is fake..n imagine i told the class...gosh!!!
haha..yat... if u happen to read this, i think u'll laugh to death..haha
so that was meant find out what kind of cake i like..haiz..think i'm damn stupid lah...
ok..so after dinner...went to istana park n i thot they juz want to find a place to sit n talk kind o thing..
finally they settle down..n came the next plot..
so xiuling n kherray was like saying we had ur present hidden somewhere in the park then i was like huh???
n i oso blur blur..juz walk with jiaying lo..
but actually when we were walking..told jiaying that..i feel that it's not that simple..
sounds a bit 调虎离山之计...yup n it is lah..
ahaha...so..they bought me a small cake n lighting it lah..yah...
kherray oso got me the lemon polar cake that we were craving for the other day..
ahaha..
she keep making me eat man..cuz i think she's a pig herself..ahhah..
n the 3rd thing i'm being bluffed is that she said she dedicated a song..n it's abt time to listen!!
actually 半信半疑..but i juz listen lo..in case she really did it...then cannot waste her effort..
ahaha...
oooohhh..think i'm qt dumb n innocent n naive.....hahaha..
i din know they put in such an effort man..
cuz i only know them like one mth or one mth plus???
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ya...
really appreciate all who put in such an effort to rem n celebrate my bdae...
yah..really appreciate..some may not be able to c this blog..but i juz want to say a v v v v v v huge thank you!!!!
really glad u guys r in my life...thanks so much
i love u all!!!!

mm..
these few days keep going out!!
that's a good sign!!
ahhah..
mmm...ok let's c..
oh i want to talk abt wed!!
so yup wed...went to eat dinner with edith n jess n lingli n marissa (ll's fren)
suppose to be my bdae dinner!!
n we went to jack's place!!
have a great time chit chatting!! ooh...n teasing!!
hahahah...
n food's not bad lah..
then..got bdae present from jess n edith...
they v cute lo..bought me a roald dahl treasury book..haha
i like it!!
cuz roald's my all time fav!!!
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then today took leave...
n went out with kherray..
but half way pangsei her..so paiseh...
if not actually we will be going ikea...
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