mmm...
talked to jess yest...
mm..
i'm like her minus her straighforwardness.....haha...
told her that..told edith that oso...n her ans to this eqn:
jess - straightforwardness = yuwen = dunno what to do...
hahah...
that's qt true lah hor..
think most of the pple dunno how to 和我相处。。
that's partly cuz i dunno how to express myself...
maybe if i'm better at expressing myself...things will be better ba....
but 说的容易，做起来可难咯。。
我想。。现在是时候想想我到底要的是什么了。。。

mm...when's the last time i blogged??
er... 26 may... that's thurs!
din realise.....haha..
well...actually got nth to blog anyway..
juz filling up spaces i think...
ha crap

"it all too often seems the art of communication draws much influence from abstract-impressionism. in today's fast paced interactive environment, even innocent attempts to reach out to others is many times painted with false assumptions and perceived innuendos irrelevant to the intended message or the style of delivery. defensive posturing based on negative assumptions and misread intentions can cause an innocuous attempt to communicate to be met by unnecessary and often inappropriate resistance or interference.
in other words, i realised that:
colourizing black and white does not necessarily make for a clearer picture."

obviously i din write this...the eng so cheem..haha..
sort of borrowed this from gloria... well...ain't it true?

mm...
maybe that's y i pms yest...

eeeeeeee...giving myself excuses again...

ooooooooohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh......
cramp~~~~~~~~~~~~~
auntie visit...
lucky that i took half day off..if not i'll be suffering at work man...
so irritating...
seems that i always get cramps on the first day....so painful~~
muz do sth soon...mmm...think i'll go ask ard how to make it better...not so xin ku...
做女人真辛苦啊！！！

昨天，edith告诉我她对不同的朋友有不同的方法。但她不是每一次都知道那方法是对的还是错的。
她说她也不是很清楚要如何对我。不过我想她是采取了以我主动的方法，也就是说，她不会问除非我想说。这种方法并不代表她不关心我。这我也知道。
我告诉她，以前我不喜欢她的这个方法，也时常因为她这种看似不在乎的态度而感到生气，烦躁。但因我不是个善于表达的人，所以当时她也不知道我到底是在发什么闷气。我想当时她对我可说是不知所措。久了，我也渐渐地习惯她对我的这种方法。

我想我这个人是这样的；当很在乎的时候，要求就特别的高，以至每次觉得对方是不在乎的。但事实并不是有如我所想象的，而是我的心魔在作祟。

对付于文的方法其之一：给她希望然后再让她失望。把她捧起再抛下。



宁愿别人当场撒谎拒绝。

死心的理由

离开我　在没有决裂的时候　
就让灵魂彻底的坠落　喔　喔
＊放逐过　还逃不出你的左右 　
怪只怪我把爱当寄托　
一时迷惑　一路犯错
＃给我死心的理由　
誓言融雪时别沉默　
我的美丽只剩哀愁 　
怕看见温柔眼眸　
怕断了唯一的出口　
就无处可躲 　
你时而热情时而冷漠的双手　
多叫人心痛
You played my heart　喔
Repeat ＊＃　＃
心痛

woke up damn late today...
watched a beautiful mind...mmm...suddenly qt interested in john nash's game theory..
maybe shld go n read abt it...
ahahha....

movies that i want to watch!!!!!!
~madagascar
~fantastic four
~da vinci code
~harry potter n the globet of fire
~mr n mrs smith
~the chronicles of narnia
~ladies in lavender
~charlie n the chocolate factory
~the greatest game ever played

ahahah...that shld be all for now...ahha....wonder how much money i'm going to spend man..
oh no...esp movies r so ex now...haiz....

went to play badminton with aloy yat ch n xs today..
mm... think v long time nv work out liao... haha..
but it's really good to do some exercise...
went to eat kfc after that... think they ch saw this guy whom they say it's one of sg idol participant...think he's benjamin ah..dunno lah...nv really watch sg idol..
n aloy ch n xs was like daring each other to insult him..
hah...but no one did lah...
then went to visit hq at her workplace... haha...
it's like so funny lo... we went there but saw her at the entrance so went to the back n made a big detour b4 going back to the entrance n sneaked in..
ahha..
so lingered inside for a long time b4 aloy decided to buy a bottle of alcohol..n we went to hq's counter to pay for it...haha
think a bit paiseh...cuz there's this guy (whom i think it's the supervisor)..he keep standing opp hq's counter...seems like he's observing her..but oso not sure la..

haha...
bought 2 tops today!!
really glad i bought the ness top... green colour...sleevness...n long kind.,.....haha..so nice...but burn qt a bit of my pocket..
but i really like ness clothes!!
so nice!!!
hahah...

温室花朵

美丽的花园
有阳光、空气、和水
寂寞的时候 有你相依偎
银色的月光 飘来了音乐
你，是我灵感的来源
也是我唯一的冒险
窗外幻想的边界
有沙漠和蔚蓝的海面
任凭屋外狂风吹
我流下珍珠般的眼泪
我的容颜最娇媚
我的眼前一片漆黑
我的爱情最甜美
我的灵魂已枯萎
美丽的花园
有阳光、空气、和水
我是一朵带刺的玫瑰

孩子

夜已晚得很美丽
天已亮得很分明
我在你的回忆里
是黄昏还是黎明

是否爱得不彻底
我也早已分不清
面对镜子里面的自己
话不投机

也许 我真的傻得可以
竟然还不懂你的暗示
我还把我自己当作是
你最疼的孩子

我想 我真的傻得可以
其实我已经迷失自己
我还把我自己当作是 你的唯一

小步舞曲

天空突然下起倾盆大雨
恋人在屋檐下相偎相依
移动我的脚步轻松躲雨
人潮拥挤握住湿热的手心
再也不愿想起不快乐的旋律
呼吸这一秒的空气
还有多少回忆 藏着多少秘密
在我心里翻来覆去
什么叫做爱情
还有多少回忆 藏着多少秘密
在你心里我也许只是你欣赏的风景
夜晚静静等着电话响起
时间躺在他去年寄来的信
空荡的风叫我播放着舞曲
旋转这一秒的孤寂
还有多少回忆 藏着多少秘密
在你心里我也许是你轻快的游戏
还有多少回忆 藏着多少秘密
在你心里我也许只是你缓慢的练习
音乐响起我一个人演出重覆的舞曲

太聪明

我总以为你一般难懂的我
在你了解了以后
其实也没什么
我总是忽冷又忽热
隐藏我的感受
只是怕爱你的心被你看透
猜的没错想得太多
不会有结果
被你看穿了以后
我更无处可躲
我开始后悔不应该太聪明的卖弄
只是怕亲手将我的真心葬送
我猜中你的心
也差一点距离
遥远的距离都是因为太过聪明
我猜中你的心
要再一次决定
缓慢的思绪都是因为太想靠近你

告诉我

看沉默的电话 它什么都不说
看电视的画面 它无声的闪动
看街上的行人 跟我擦肩而过
整个世界太冷漠 我没有力气再往前走
看你紧闭的嘴唇 它什么都不说
看你飘忽的眼神 它无情的闪躲
看你和我的回忆 跟我擦肩而过
你的改变太冷漠 我没有勇气大声地说
告诉我 你不是真的离开我
你也不愿这样的夜里 把难过留给我
告诉我 你不是真的离开我
你是要惩罚我的爱让你失去自由
告诉我．．．

让我想一想

漫步在荒原我想找一棵栖身的树
有阳光 有流水 还有微风吹
该如何面对 这未知的一切
让自己的思绪沉淀
随着天色的改变
心情的外衣也要多加一件
这些对 那些好 我想追 我想逃
其实我也害怕 可不可以就这样停下来
我要多一点时间好让我再想一想
隔着玻璃窗
我早已沉醉在蓝色的街
有寂寞 有笑语 还有看不见的雪
该如何整理
这忙乱的城市
还有我的心事
躲在十二月热闹的夜
我只要一个人 安安静静地
什么对 什么好 不要问 不要猜
不要太靠近我 可不可以勇敢地停下来
我要多一点空间好让我再想一想

九份的咖啡店

这里的景色像你变幻莫测
这样的午后我坐在九份的马路边
这里的空气很新鲜
这里的感觉很特别
仰望这片天空
遥望我对你的思念
窗外的星空像你嬉笑不眠
这样的午夜我坐在九份的咖啡店
这里的街道有点改变
这里的人群喧闹整夜
望着朦胧的海岸线
是否还能回到从前
昨日的单纯今天的实际像你
而你也早已不是你
我的心 是一杯调和过的咖啡
怀念着往日淡薄的青草味
窗外的景色像你
没什么道理
这样的午后
我在忠孝东路的咖啡店
这里的街道有点危险
这里的人群面无表情
想问你也问自己
是否还会记得从前
昨日的单纯今天的实际像你
而你也早已不是你
我的心 是一杯调和过的咖啡
怀念着往日淡薄的青草味
怀念着往日的坚持和现在你我的改变

因为太在乎，太想去珍惜，才会做出任性的举动吧。。。

每个人都有他们应该属于的世界。
越过界限是会给自己和别人添麻烦的。
就像外星人和人类。
如果外星人硬闯进我们的世界，就会制造恐慌的。

mm....comics anime music guitar later.....

had my second guitar lesson!!
ahahahh..
well...finally saw the gal...as in zheng4 mian4...haha
well..too bad...she not that pretty after all..
only side view n complexion is nice...
haiz..
hey...i guess i muz be so bored with my life that i'm starting to take note of such things...hahaha
mmm..last time like don't have hor...
hahaha...

woke up damn early this morn...
was intending to go ntu hi-tea session...but it was like pouring damn hard....
n xs n ys decided not to go...mmm...so slacked the whole day...
oh...but i watched piglet's big movie!!
hhahhaha....
so cute!!
actually that kind of movie teach us a lot of things...
n i really like such movies...where they'll tell u stuff that is simple yet impt...but sth we forget easily....
mm...
so abt the piglet's big movie....
winnie the pooh n others often forgets abt piglet's contribution...
cuz he's soooooo small...
n cuz he's sooo small...they thot he can't do things...n that's y they always leave him out...
but piglet's actually a v considerate n generous person...he don't mind such things as long as he's always with his frens...
simple yet impt...

woke up damn late today...think i woke up at one....
heheh...so paiseh...
re-reading the comic that i rented!!
it's so nice!!
the gal so chio n the guy so shuai...hahahaha.....
v nice...thou a bit r rated...hahaha
aiyah...but comics all like that one..hahaha
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went to see my dajie off...she's going india for a wk...eee...india...
went to eat crystal jade juz before she went in...
not v nice actually....
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
ohhhh....think my guitar tcher's a v nice person...
he's going to lent me his guitar until i got one myself...
n he left it in the school liao...told me to collect it...
wow...not bad.......
hope i can my own guitar soon!!
heheheh...
but that means burning a big big hole...
ok...muz save money!!!!!
save save save!!!
shen3 qian2 da4 ji4 hua4!!!!

went out with xs n yat...ok weird combi...we nv go out in this combi b4..haha
but it's still fun!!
hahah....
bought a butterfly earrings...hehehe...
actually wanted to buy this shorts from Wh...but no money leh...
now a bit regret liao...
n i think i oso regretted not buying the notebook....oh no.......
haiz.....
but no money leh......
haiz......

had my first guitar lesson yest!!
actually a bit scared...cuz dunno anything abt music...n v paiseh i'm juz join like halfway..
but lucky it's still alrite...
found out that it's only their 2nd lesson yest...but still a bit paiseh..cuz they got learn music b4...
the class is exxxxxxtttttrrreeemmmeeelly small...haha..
including me there's only 3 students..haha
n the other 2 students r actually siblings...
at first thot they qt dao...but i guess shld be alrite lah...aha
oohh..n the sis's qt chio...haha...juz that...she's abit lian...but she got v nice features...hahha...
the bro's ok...still a young kid....but then he helped me to put the guitar back..not bad..haha
n now i'm going to get a guitar!! the teacher is going to help us..
well..
that means i'm going to be v v poor now...
haiz...but it's ok...the most save up on.....food...hahahah

大家都在玩这游戏。
它的最大规则：无论如何都要玩到底，不可放弃。
这游戏是没有“从来”这两个字。
它是我们打从一出世就加入的人生游戏。

讨厌自己。
讨厌自己的任性。
讨厌自己的无理取闹。
讨厌自己的坏脾气。
讨厌自己的愚蠢。
讨厌自己的感性。
讨厌。。。
有时，还真的很讨厌自己。

有一句话：勤能补拙。
虽然如此，在某些方面，不论你多努力，还是行不通的。

went indochine again....
cuz ys wanted to go...
met her online n she suddenly suggested drinking...
so went liao lo...
but at least today got live band..
n they sang songs that i like...
not bad a band overall...
yup...